What a terrible day. What an absolutely devastating day. I have silently cried steaming tributaries that will join a sea of sorrow located somewhere around Orlando, Florida. But only when you weren’t looking. I stole my cries like cigarettes from my mother’s drawer. I tiptoed around grief, thinking it would shield you from the consequences. If I just let it sleep
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Nobody tells you that your heart will break a thousand times through being a parent, and it will hurt worse than it could ever hurt for itself.
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Dear Evan and Lulu, Today the Supreme Court of the United States issued a ruling to make same-sex marriage a nationwide right. Today I had the honor of watching the world celebrate from the hub of the movement, San Francisco. Today I got to hear from Robbie Kaplan, about her monumental part in this victory. Today I wept over and
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I recently starting journaling with my 8yr old. We take turns answering questions and leaving each other notes. One of the questions asked “What would you do if you weren’t afraid to fail?” I put “I would be a writer.” She put “I would jump at Jumptime.” Almost the same thing. (Sidenote, she later confessed she thought it said FALL,
Read moreWhy do I write? Obviously not for money. Not for a career or an aspiration. Sometimes it is for my mind. To clear it or organize it. Sometimes it is to avoid cleaning. Yesterday I couldn’t think of a thing to write about so I had to clean. While cleaning I found an old journal of mine from many years
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I should have known what a wonder you would be. I should have known how huge my heart would grow. I should have known how many times a day I would want you to be by my side.
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I’ve battled pretty my entire life. I spent decades trying to be the word. Years trying to dissect the word. Now, after raising two young girls all I want to do is dismiss the word completely. It has stolen years of my life, more money than I ever want to think about, and lots and lots of joy. And why?
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Dear Evan, You were Almost my firework baby. One day late. The darkened streaks left smeared across the sky. The proof that something prodigious had just occurred. You were tiny and fierce. Full of surprises. You left everyone in awe. I was Captivated and devastated. The show was over. I was left to cleanup. But no longer alone. I held a tremendous force of
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Dear Evan and Lulu, Someday you are going to wake up and part of your body will fail you. When it happens you will think of nothing else but what you cannot do. I currently can’t run. Even though I had a tumultuous relationship with running, I dream about it every night. My muscles twitch, my joints ache, and I
Read moreDear Evan and Lulu, “I have a long way to go and a lot to learn, but I feel committed to Idaho. I’m tied to it. And I would love to see it become, and help it to become, a much better place for my daughter to grow up.” That was a quote from me In 2007 when I was
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Chop Wood, Carry Water 