My Swimming Heart
Nobody tells you that your heart will break a thousand times through being a parent, and it will hurt worse than it could ever hurt for itself.
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If your legs are working today then run
Dear Evan and Lulu, Someday you are going to wake up and part of your body will fail you. When it happens you will think of nothing else but what you cannot do. I currently can’t run. Even though I had a tumultuous relationship with running, I dream about it every night. My muscles twitch, my joints ache, and I
Read moreIt could be worse
Dear Evan and Lulu, I say this to you a lot. It could be worse. When Robie chews all your stuffed animals I tell you “It could be worse” because I know that I’ve already thrown away 250 mangled dolls, books, bubbles, puzzles, markers, and much more of your belongings that became carnage of Robie’s wrath. It could be
Read moreWhat was I thinking?
Dear Evan and Lulu, This week you both had your tonsils out. The hospital had figured out a system so the two of you never had to be without a parent except for the 20 minutes you were actually in surgery. You checked in together. You put on your gowns together. Your dad walked one into the surgery
Read moreThe biggest catch of all
Dear Evan and Lulu, I’ve felt extremely scrutinized this last week. I’m reminded that it is often times easier to keep your mouth shut, and say nothing at all. When I was nine years old I was an expert at saying nothing. I was embarrassed by my stained teeth so I spent most of my time brainstorming ways to never have
Read moreI’m full
Dear Evan and Lulu, I remember the exact moment when I found out that my mom and dad used to be people before they were parents. I was sitting on the cold cement of our laundry room looking through dusty photo albums of what appeared to be lookalikes for my parents. There were the same familiar faces I saw everyday.
Read moreYou can do this
Dear Evan, When you were 2 years old I took you to the zoo to try and waste time until your sister was born. I was huge and miserable, spending my summer binging on watermelon and dreaming of pregnant free days. You were small and spry, with endless energy and zero patience for your inflated and fatigued mother. The zoo
Read moreI’m a competitor
Dear Evan and Lulu, Two weeks ago I was uncharacteristically watching football when I saw a post-game interview with a jacked up, dread-locked, mouthy fellow by the name of Richard Sherman. Sherman caught my attention (and the attention of most the nation) because he was loud, proud, and ruthless. He played a vital role in winning the game to send
Read moreWhy books make the best birthday gifts.
Dear Evan and Lulu, This is my first birthday away from you. I’ve left for my birthday before but I at least got to spot your messy bed-hair before I left or kiss your tired faces when I got back. I’ve never spent my entire day away from you until today. I’m celebrating my 32nd year of life at a
Read morePlease don’t bully the bullies
Dear Evan and Lulu, This weekend we were celebrating the birthday of a friend at a local indoor playground. The host parents gave the other parents the option of leaving for the 90 min party, then returning to pick you up, or staying for the duration of the festivities. I was the only parent who stayed. Part of that was
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Chop Wood, Carry Water 